Sabachthani was magical…..
How did I get here? If you had shown me a preview of what happened Sunday night when I was 15, I would not have believed you. This was never my life. My life was filled with tragedy, loss, and painful abandonment. There were no breaks….only unending pain and rejection.
Yet, somehow, without those experiences….I wouldn’t have the knowledge or insight to connect with the very people my heart cries out for. How do you show someone the heart of God? How do you unveil the romance of His love? I don’t know about everyone else, but, I think tracks and reciting the 4 spiritual laws are abrasive…and I love God with all my heart. I wouldn’t have responded to it when I was 15, and still don’t respond to it at 33. God cannot be summed up by reciting sermon points, or explained with childish cartoon drawings. Forgive me if I offend, I know that God uses different people in different ways.
My idea of unveiling the love of God is what happened on Sunday night….when Jesus (played so beautifully by Maxx Reed) met me at the site of my biggest failures…as a mother, as a daughter, as a woman…..and took my hand, and danced with me.
“Take my hand….I’ve walked this way before. Don’t be afraid to believe. Stay with me….”
Ironically, I’m not sure that the churches around here are ready to receive a performance of the power and “romance” of the God of the universe. But, one thing I know for sure….the world is ready. The world outside the church drinks it in like spring rain on a parched land. What a predicament. Who will receive us? I’m so thankful for Crossway Church…who so willingly embraces us! My prayer is for others who will do the same. One thing’s for sure…God will have His way. He will open doors. Jesus Himself was rejected by His own….what makes me think we would have it easier?
Worship dance is finally gaining acceptance - yay! Hopefully that will pave the way a bit for us….we’re a bit more “BAM!” than simple worship dance. When we start tossing rifles and sabres, well…I don’t guess Bellevue is ready for that one. Won’t they be surprised in Heaven? I’m convinced that even our weapons will survive the consuming fire in that day. Man, Nicole is so amazing now….just wait until that day! And, nay sayers beware…..Jesus will dance with me! (That is, if I can pull myself up from a puddle on the ground).
If I died tonight, I would die content, and happy, and full to overflowing with the power and presence of God. How did I get here? How did I capture the heart of the Lord? It’s only what He GIVES me that is good and worthy….nothing in and of myself is good. It’s a mystery…..I may not ever understand, but….I will love Him, and follow Him anywhere.